Depression at its best

Sucking it up and trying to get over this depression!! Where's my ruby red slippers?!?!? I want to go back to the land that makes sense and that's full of friends! There's NO PLACE LIKE HOME! No amout of money can replace happiness. I may have said the life was not great there and with some ppl it wasn't. But for the majority, I LOVED MY LIFE IN IDAHO!

Ok, yep I know that things will be great in Alaska, but that does not help the fact that Rob and I are a little home sick and that the traditions that we usually follow at this holiday season can not even come close to doing. We both miss our friends and family. And you are right Nicky, the not being able to jump in a car and go see YOU or any friend of mine or Robs is a HUGE deal!! For him as well as me. Idk only time will tell what we will do, as for today I can remain sad and wish I was near my extended family! Rob when you read this post know I would follow you anywhere! You are my life and my world, but that will not change the fact that I will be home sick and depressed from time to time, and that I will dream of going home. I love you with all that I am and all that I have and that will never change!!! No matter where we live.

Im not going to sit here and say that i am happy and that everything is peachy!! its not!! I am sad, i am depressed. I really wish i could convince Rob to go home and to start his own mobile RV, Lets face it he had tons of customers and people who loved him in southern ID.  I know he could have done well. 

I guess I just dont understand why he Hates southern ID.....I have always thougth a place is as good as you make it. I know how dumb that sounds when I am complaining about AK. BUT BUT BUT,  I have good reason to complain.  

MY HUBBY IS NOT HAPPY HERE AND HE MISSES HIS FRIENDS AND HE MISSES JUST GOING OUT AND HUNTING AND SHOOTING WITH THE KIDS.. 

I can say that i miss that too.  I would be a huge lier if i said i didn't miss my friends.  I miss them so much. 

I miss school. I have no desire to go to school here.. there grants and loans are so hard to get and if i were a native then i would be able to get grants in no time. 

I want to scream and say "hay what about my dream of raising our kids and me going to school. and Him running his own business?"    Why must we be in search of the almighty dollar. I know Mark fired him for NO FREAKING GOOD REASON!!!! How ever lets move on and MOVE BACK. 

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Im so frustrated!!!!!      Oh yeah and goodie Rob has to either walk to work starting monday or ride his bike.... in the -6 deg weather.... it does not make me happy!!! I will have to walk to the store to get food.  I know I will have a great car in about 6 months. :(  maybe we should just pack it in and say we did the best we could and time to go home. 

Chicken Enchiladas

1 whole chicken.. (2-4lbs worth)
1/2 cup water (or enough to cover chicken
2 garlic cloves
1 lg Onion chopped
2 TBSP Butter
1 clove garlic
3 cans Diced green chili's (3 1/2 oz can each)
3 TBSP Chili powder
1 1/2 tsp Salt
1 1/4 tsp Oregano
1 1/2 tsp ground cumin
1 1/4 tsp pepper
1 C Flour
1 1/2 - 1 3/4 Chicken Broth
1/ 1/2 C heavy cream
1/ 1/2 C Mozzarella cheese
24 Flour Tortillas
2 Green Onions Sliced

CHICKEN: Place chicken in a pot with the water, and Garlic. Boil until tender, cool and cut into thin pieces. (We just pulled the chicken apart.)

SAUCE: Saute onions in butter until soft, add Garlic , Chilies, chili powder, cumin, salt, oregano, and pepper. Cook 1 min then stir in flour. 
Stir in all chicken broth and heavy cream. Cook until starts to thicken. (about 10 min) 
Add the cheese

Add enough sauce to coat the chicken and mix in a bowl. Fill tortillas with chicken and roll up place sea, side down on oven. Pour remaining cheese sauce evenly over top.

place in a 9x13 pan and cook @ 350 until cheese is melted. About 30 ish min. 

If you just do the sauce it can be used as nacho sauce. Also if you dont have heavy cream use milk and add more butter.

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snow snow snow lol

Monday

  Today is Monday, and I just had the best weekend with my hubby... lets start out with Friday.


So Friday I picked up Rob and we came home for about an hour and then off to work at Kaylee's house. Can i just say how amazing it is to just spend time with him... we talk about everything. we put but the wonder board and taped... and started the demo on the other bath....

Sat
So more clean up on the demo... and then off to the mall with the kids... Rob was going to work but he decided to come with to the mall... we were ing to go ice skating but that didnt happen... lol.... we got there and they were closing  at 2:30 we arrived at 2:20 lol. so we went bowling. that was fun. I bought a new hat i love it. then back home.

Kids just hung at the house and Rob and I went out with Wendy and Robert... we went to McGinleys .. we won 2 shot glasses and a shirt and a hat with many key rings... whooohoooo was a fun fun fun night,

Sunday...
Back to demo and we started the tile.. woohoo fun times. it is starting to look so good. I am excited with all the progress.

I snowed and snowed and snowed here. I think we have about 8-12 inches

thursday

  agh..... I get so frustrated....this is going to be a bitch fest. lol

So our dang old computer (lap top) is not working again. There for I have to fight to use oe of the other Computers... Also It frustrates me to no end when I ask if I can change the channel and i get the sure... then while looking for something else to watch I get hey lets watch that... and if i don't pick it then i get the whining, or pouting. Good Grief if i would have wanted to watch what you were watching i would have left it along!!!!

Also Dinner is driving me crazy.......why the crap should i get up and be the ONLY one to cook dinner??? Where was that written? I dont mind cooking but some help would be great. And without the whining, grr

Next topic
Not so PG rated on this one...

I Think my hubby is trying to wear me out.... in the bedroom department....He gets frustrated that when am tired and want to go to bed at 10 pm and dont want sex that he kinda pouts.... what happened to the art of just being in the same bed and cuddling........ somethimes I would just love to have him take me in his arms and just hold and cuddle with me....WITHOUT  sex....

anyhow sorry about the sex topic... but like i said i dont think anyone is reading this anyways....

Tuesday.

     So on this fine Tuesday, Rob took the day off and he and I went to Rians Award assembly today. He got an award for excellent math. It is awesome to see the school district here care about there kids... I went to one of these in Eagle River. For Ruthanne"s Boy. Ya see, the schools here like to congratulate kids on there excellent and I love that.... so many of the schools in Burley were all about you didnt do this and your kid is a bad kid, your kids dont follow along ... blah blah blah. Come on teachers and give these kids some congrats and I just bet they will start to like school and become better at it.

   So Rob and I got to go have breakfast together and hang out together all day... :) that always makes me happy. I love hanging out with my hubby. We went car shopping today... and thought we had one... but didnt  I guess. it was 5995 and a 97.  So we told them we had 1500 to put down on it .... they come back with well we need 2500-2000 down on it... and your payments instead of 300 will be 389... FRUSTRATED!!!!! need less to say we left with out a car.

    Then off to Kaylees, Rob got up all the wonderboard in the guess bathroom. I got the whole kitchen painted. Well the first coat at least. Its looking good. we spent until 8 pm over there on it. Then home for left over Lasagna. yummmmmy.

Todays weather was windy for here and chilly.

ok well goodnight.... Not that anyone is reading this anyways.

Smurph

Monday

Today I woke up to over heating... Good Grief our landlord keeps the temp at like 85.. Way to hot!! I had to open the windows just to cool off our house.

So a little more snow today.... and these CRAZY Alaska drivers .... they just pass you like you are standing steal. It just drives me nuts. oh well i have seen plenty of wreaks.

Went to Kk's house and demolished the bathroom.. he he :) she knows... and I got all the Kitchen and Dining room ready to paint .. Cant wait till she comes back and sees it. Another 3 weeks to go... and that is a good thing since we have to paint, retile and put in hard wood floors.

My brain tonight is going at least 100 miles a min. I have so many topics on my mind... its nuts.

Thinking about some new things we bought... and thinking of things i would like to get in the next few months.
 

Ok well since i cant not concentrate then i will say good night and talk tomorrow..

Love you guys.

Sunday

Holly Crap I have been so busy.

     Yesterday Rob and I went with my friend Kaylee to home depot and got some flooring and some tile and other stuff. Then off to dinner with the kids ...Kriners Dinner Rules. That place is awesome. Big burgers. Big food. Just plain yummy..  After dinner ,,, Back to the house for a game of Scrabble... that was kinda funny.. Kaylee kicked Robs butt then Rian kicked my butt... what can I say.

   So Sunday,
Began a little early.. was up late :) and up early. Bed @ 2am and up @ 4:15 am. I got a nice privilege  to drive a good friend to the air port. She has to be on the east cost for 3 weeks. Some kinda training. Anyhow Rob and I are going to put in flooring and tile 2 bathrooms, while she is away. I am looking forward to it. Learn something new. Plus I get to paint and this is good  for a creative mind.

    Rob and I went shopping today. We got a much needed Shelf with 3 levels on it. Placed it right in the corner so our pots and pans could have a place to live on :)
We also went shopping for food. It has been such a long time since we have went REAL food shopping. Now our fridge is full and hour Freezer is full. it just plain nice. We made Lasagna for dinner... well ok Rob made it. But if you have ever eaten at my house you know what a fantastic cook Rob is. 2 full 9x13 pans and we only ate 1 pan full. So lucky us we got to put one in the freezer and Rob also made a ton of sauce so that means we have spaghetti sauce and pizza sauce too.

Today when I woke up and headed out the door it was snowing... Alaska snow is a little diff. Because it has been in the high 30"s (around 35-37) when the snow was mushed into the pavement it turns into ice. Then the ice says ... anyhow not a big deal to me... I have drove on ice. The thing I find funny is that I posted on FaceBook a pic and got comments like wow cant believe it snowed.. I find it hilarious .... I mean really . come on IDAHO, we get freaking snow and bad snow,.. Alaska is not that bad of place to live ... but shhhs dont tell them that. they can keep on believing  its terrible here... when its not.

Dinner was great ... my life is wonderful ... I am surrounded Near and Far  with the people I love, and who love me....

Cant ask for anything better!!!

Saturday Morning

I had such a fantastic night with my hubby. We went out to a local pub. Where we had dinner. The best corn-beef and Cabbage that we have ever had. So wonder delicious.

Although I did not get so see the movie starts ...(John Cusack or Nick Cage) They were filming just down the street from us. :D The boys and I were at the 5th Ave Mall and crossing the cat walk and I over heard some girl saying "no I didnt see him.... I cant take a pic.. my phone sucks, yeah they are just down below me .. I hope I get to see him.) Anyhow I was like what the crap is she talking about. Just then I seen all the Cameras and lighting... and a LARGE crowd gathered watching.

I find it SO awesome that they are filming "on frozen ground" and lets face it John Cusack is just yummy. I would love to see him in person. They have been here filming for a week and will be here for 3 more. so maybe i will see him.

So while at the mall i bought some new boots and some new shape ups. I cant believe that I have ruined a pair in 6 mo. CRAZY. On the plus side I got both pairs for $21. AWESOME.

Ok so got to go....I have bread to make...

Friday.

October 28, 2011..I look forward to Friday every week. I get to go out with my love. We have made it a point that we spend that night together. This Friday my boys were out of school and we just kinda hung around the house. Around 4 Seth and I went walking. We picked up a 50lb bag of flour and 25lb of Sugar. The bad thing was not the walking persay but was the walking up hill with those bags. ugh. FEEL THE BURN!!

July/Aug...So since I moved to the great state of Alaska, I have been a busy. We got here in July and I was feeling down and out. I had gained some weight back while I was in Idaho. I was feeling very unsure of things, and yet still excited at the same time. The kids and I spent the days fishing and exploring. Rob spent his time working :( and we enjoyed our weekends together. I didnt have any friends here except Ruthanne and Jamie. I had no job. That was frustrating.

Aug/sept.....Kids went back to school and I FINALLY got a job.  Thank you to Jamie, I stated to clean some houses. Kids were making friends. And I had to send them on weird little assignments. Like when they said they had a new friend.. and I asked what there name was and the boys said " I dont know" I had assignments for them, like find out LOL. Now the kids are making great friends and hanging out with them.

Oct....Still cleaning houses and taking care of my kids and wonderful hubby. I am enjoying life and things are good. We are soon going to get a good car and maybe in the spring a new place to live. This house is too small but is working just fine for now. I was so worried about the kids being so grouchy at one another being in a  small place but, they are doing well.

I know I have lost weight... although dont own a scale in AK. Mine is in Idaho. My clothes are fitting better or just falling off. I do believe that I have found the key to a good relations ship... TEAM WORK and LOVE. Rob and I are a team and work together for the good of our lives together. We make time for one another. Something I find most people dont do. Get out of your married rut and make time for each other..cause in the end the man/woman is who you chose and who chose you. This is the one that in the end when the kids are gone will be by your side.

I know my Hubby is my best friend. I love him like there is no tomorrow.

Ok so I am new to this.

I have wanted to start a blog for a while now. I just want to cove my everyday issues. Rants and Raves about the new life and land in witch I live in. I love the new state I live in. Although I feel like most people look at it as another country. It very well could be, since we are so far from all the rest of the states.